I walked across fire - twice.

I sat in silence for seven days with Joe Dispenza.

I flew across the world to study at Mindvalley in Estonia.

I trained in NLP, CBT, mindfulness - investing three decades and thousands of dollars chasing the promise of transformation.

And yet…

Under stress, I still collapsed into old patterns.

In conflict, I still overexplained.

And in my quiet moments, I still felt like the strong one who couldn’t afford to fall apart:

I had four children, a marriage had less depth and intimacy than I knew could be possible, a business to run. Honestly, I did not have time to fall apart and I thought I had done the ‘work’.

It wasn’t that those methods were wrong.

They just weren’t enough - not for the kind of change I needed.

Because the real shift didn’t come when I learned more.

It came when I rewired what was driving me underneath it all.